I've found that time moves differently when you have a baby.
The perception of time is a funny thing. I remember before Bennett .. well, even before Trevor, time seemed to stand still. It was so slow moving that my family even had a little running joke. For a couple years my mom, brother and I wrote down our new year goals the week of Christmas/New Years Eve. Silly things mostly but for all of us a few years back, we had one shared goal.
SOMEONE was going to meet their SOMEONE and Christmas was not going to be the same again!
A couple years went by with the same Christmas after my brother made that statement lol No someones. Just us. Taking the same Christmas photos with the same people for another year in a row. Until 2020. When everything changed for literally the entire world. Our family was not untouched! My brother met his wife, I met my husband, my mom moved to CO, and within two years we had two weddings, two babies and now another one on the way! Not me this time ;) The past two Christmases have not been the same.
Time is most certainly not standing still any longer.
Before I got pregnant, I had so much time to myself for myself to do whatever I wanted to do! I knew that but I didn’t know that at the same time. I love Bennett more than anything but my goodness he keeps me busy! Its so crazy how your thoughts shift from self care to every hour is checking on baby. I’m hungry but when did Bennett eat last? I need to pee, has Bennett pooped today? I really need to do laundry, does Bennett have clothes for the sitter tomorrow? I would love to take a bath, Bennett needs a bath before bed he spent all day outside. I need to take my vitamins, did Bennett eat balanced meals today?
Every thought about me is connected to a thought about him.
Time is moving fast now.
Self care is absolutely important so you can show up for those who need you. Caring for someone else changes the focus on the speed of time. I see now why people say life goes by so fast once you have kids. You're thoughts are so consumed you don't have time to think about time! I love it. In a strange way, I needed it.
Purpose in life shifts from season to season. Time ticks on whether we pay attention to it or not.
I find myself every day taking a step back to soak in life with what it is right now. Most days go by so fast they are a blur in this season. But I remember a time when they didn’t. I’m sure another time like that will come. I want to be able to look back on my life and smile, remembering the crazy minutes changing the sheets every night because Bennett peed out of his diaper for the 5th time this week and the fusses before nap time and the heart warming smiles when he sees me come home or wakes up next to me first thing in the morning.
Time is precious. These moments are everything.
For this time, this season, I am thankful.
Photos by Breanna at SheaPhotography
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