Have you ever started chasing after a dream only to realize you have no idea what you are chasing after? *insert nervous sweating emoji*
I didn't grow up with a big plan for my life. No dream of being a doctor or a lawyer or any of the career cards you could pick from in the game of Life.
All I could see and dream of what my future life would look like summed up to this vague but meaningful picture:
I wanted to be happy, surrounded by family and friends, doing what I love, enjoying everyday life.
Looking around at my life today, I am so blessed. I am living out that picture, though it looks far from what I vaguely envisioned.
Deep down, however, there are God sized dreams that keep surfacing and stirring in my heart. You know, the big, abstract, no real plan or idea of how they would come to pass but the ones you can't stop thinking about? The desire is real but the connecting points are lacking. And that can be frustrating. Exhausting. At times, defeating.
I have a tendency to start researching as I dream chase with one idea and get lost down a rabbit hole, going from ideas such as "how to start a successful blog" to trying to decide what new coffee brand I'd like to try and if the subscribe and save on Amazon is worth it or not. Even though I'm laughing at the fact this does happen often, it can cause a restlessness in my soul that's hard to shake. An impending doom, if you will, that if I don't figure this out right now then I'm going to miss out on the dream and look back on life regretting I didn't try or figure it out.
Can you relate?
I'm finding it important, now more than ever, to find pause in my ever racing brain and rest in Jesus. I remember reading articles before I got married that would encourage the single woman to take advantage of the sweet, uninterrupted time with Jesus; a joy to experience uniquely in singlehood. I would read that and be like yea yea yea. I can find the time no matter if I'm single or married, with or without kids!
I laugh at my single self now =D
I often find myself saying quick prayers before bed and in-between tasks for B, reading the daily Bible verse occasionally when prompted by my phone.
Thinking about Jesus often, spending time with Him few and far between.
I know I need to find the time. Make the time. Prioritize the time. Because I know that when I spend time building upon my relationship with God, I find peace and clarity on whatever I am facing.
Peace and clarity.
I value those two things more and more each day.
If you are searching for peace or clarity on your life purpose, I encourage you to spend some time with Jesus. I know I need to! For this season, I keep feeling a nudge in my heart to take a pause and get into the word. For other seasons, its been writing, worship, or going for walks in prayer.
Whatever you are facing, know that you are not alone and no prayer or weight on your heart is too big or too small for the Lord's attention!
I pray over anyone reading this right now (including myself), that your heart would be filled with peace. I pray for clear eyes for direction and purpose that the Lord has placed on your life. I pray for a refresh in connection with you, Father, so they can be refreshed and breathe easy going into tomorrow. Thank you for the heart that is reading these words right now. Bless them greatly, meet their needs, and may they find true rest in you. In Jesus name, amen.
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